Twist and Turn

bloodlust56 @ 2005-01-03T01:38:00

2005-01-03T06:43:07Z

Well, steph's party was pretty good, tons of people showed up and like everyone slept over. Her dog kept pissing everywhere.. haha. It was basically just a regular party, no new years feel to it, i mean, we missed the friggin ball drop lol, someone spotted the clock at exactly 11:59 and everyone started freaking out and we all ran to the tv in the living room. We all stared at the tv; random people screaming at steph; as she hurredly flipped through the channels, it was one of the most intense moments iv ever had, lol. But we were too late, by the time we got there all we saw was "2005" all lit up, it was so funny, everyone just let out a huge scream and started hugging and what not, it was so great. You know there was all the normal drama but by the time it was like 4 we were all settled down watching "saved" and those who werent were in other rooms getting comfortable.. after "saved" ended I dont even know what time it was but we then put on "willy wonka and the chocolate factory" lol, we were so out of it, I just wanted some of that friggin chocolate... so yea I ended up falling asleep prolly around 7 ish, I had started out on the couch with Ashleigh but then at one point we rolled off and ended up on the floor...lol.

We got home at about quarter to 11 and i slept till 3.. during that time the others went to the mall with jess and well, bought stuff.. By the time I was showered they had gotten home and we just hung out for the few hours Jess was still here, then at around 5 we started off to the airport to bring jess home.. Yea it was pretty bad, we got some pics before and at the airport, but at the end it was just jess on one side of the glass wall and us standing on the other waving good bye, they wouldnt let anyone in to wait with her. it was very sad.

...bye jess

On the way home I got dropped off at Dan's and Slept over there, along with Ian and Tim. That night we went to the movies to see "meet the fockers" and met up with Steph, Casey, Ellen and Paul. The movie was wicked funny, everyone should definatly see it. After the movie we went over to TGI Friday's and got something to eat.. from there we went back to Dan's. Just hung out watched movies (Shaun of the dead was wicked funny), played some halo lol and and fell asleep at around 5)

This morning (afternoon) I got up at 1 ish. I stayed at Dan's till about 5:30 until Dan's aunt brought me home. Got home, cleaned my room, got some food, pretty much anything that would prolong studying for history and math homework... soo it ended up being that I left my math book at school lol but I did end up doing history, I made flash cards and what not and studied for a good 2 hours... Now its 1:35 am and I have to get up in 3 1/2 hours for school.. I cant fall asleep and this sucks because I know im gonna like pass out in school tomorrow.. lol im too used to going to bed at like 5 and 6... and every time I lay down I feel like im wasting time that has the potential to be fairly productive. Alright well im gonna go read or something, later.

Jess come back soon <3

bloodlust56 @ 2004-12-31T15:11:00

2004-12-31T20:22:58Z

Well lets see... Wednesday I woke up and we all went to pilgrim lanes, upon getting there we played some pool, and then after a couple games went and played ddr and air hockey. Later that day Pat Matt and Dan met us at pilgrims and we all hung out for a while. Thats when my mom called adn told us to come home before it started getting dark (cuz we had to walk ALL THE WAY HOME) and for those of you who dont know where I live, its pretty fuckin far from pilgrims, lol. So we decided we were gonna leave when we also decided we were hungry.. so we stopped at romanos and got something to eat.. about 45 min. later my mom called again and asked if we were almost home cuz she had dinner all made and on the table.. we hadnt even left romanos yet (which was in fact out of our way, we had to leave romanos and walk past pilgrims before heading home). Lol so i grabbed the pizza box and we left immediatly and speed walked the whole way home. When we got there.. we were grounded lol and mom said we couldnt go to Andres. But then we got ungreounded cuz we are just so smooth like that and we all went to Andre's house. We pretty much just hung out in his room mostly, at one point we went for a walk around his neighborhood and also into his really creepy woods... lol so yea then we got picked up at around 10:30 ish and I dont remember what happened we we got home...

Thursday Me Kim and Kay went to Dan's house (Jess went to Rhyans) and we watched Napoloen Dynamite which was so friggin funny, lol. EVERYONE should see that movie. Later that day we (me kim kay Dan and Billy) went to Loews to go see "the phantom of the opera" and we met up with Jessica, Rhyan, Victoria and Julie. The movie was great, everyone also she see that movie. Then we got home and watched a movie and i got bored so i went upstairs and talked to dan online till like 5 lol.

And now its today... today has so far sucked.. im like home alone (except kay) and bored as all hell.. Later today is the party so hopefully that will be good.. and then tomorrow morning we are going to boston to hang out at fanuel hall or whatever for a while before Jess has to go home.. well not much else to say, guess ill ttyl

bloodlust56 @ 2004-12-29T03:57:00

2004-12-29T09:37:20Z

Wow I havnt updated in forever.. sry its been a while. I doubt many people will see this anyway cuz im sure no one even checks mine anymore but w/e its all good lol. Got out of school thursday and slept over dans, pretty much the same old stuff. Friday I had to spend the day at my Aunts house for christmas eve and we ate a lot and got presents lol. Saturday was good and bad. Christmas pretty much ruled though. i got a computer for my room, a desk, a couple computer games, a couple xbox games etc. Sunday Jessica finally got here!! FUCKIN AWESOME

-sry jess i had too :-) lol -kay and jess -kay and jess rollin pjs... lol

yep so we all just hung out that night me and dan were up till 6!! Jeska woke us up lol I was so out of it. Monday we all went to the movies and saw darkness, I thought it was a good movie. Pretty much everyone else hated it lol, thats ok. So yea then around 6 ish Victoria came over and we all played risk and this other game cant remember the name....lol yea and then around 11 ish I got to Dans house and hun gout with Him Matt and Pat and then slept over. Today at around 2 Ashley Derman picked me up, Mirjola visited oday and first we went to Ashleys house and hung out. We then walked down to pilgrims and played ddr then I beat ashley twice in a row at air hockey, lol, then we played pool in which I was also victorious in both the american annnndd European version, lol dont ask. After that we went back to Ashleys and had some pizza, soon after we went to lowes and saw "a series of unfortunate events" which was a greta movie, wicked funny and even better if you've read the books (which i have) lol. After that I came home and hun gout with kim and jess and listened to some kid do a really good rendition of "konstantine" on jessica's mp3 player, apparently some kid at a talent show, but it sounded so good it was friggin awesome, lol i love tha song, anyways so we sarted downloadingmusic and just doin some more catching up and u kno some serious conversations and before we new it it was 1:30, lol so we went downstairs cuz we got hungry and I made some taquitos lol. After that we talked with my mom about random shit for a good 45 minutes and then sat down to watch stepford wives. Not too long into it Kim decides to go to bed, so then Jessica does. Then I came up too my room, and here I am, typing this extremely interesting entry on my new computer listening to emo music by myself lol. A sad sight if I do say so myself.

Oh lol also, we went online to look for some backgrounds and we found the fuckin greatest pics of these "humanoid creatures" which we've named Juan (lol again, dont ask) and it is so awesome its so friggin emo and i friggin love it. So I felt the need to share them with you.

-thus concludes emo pictures, and my entry. Later

bloodlust56 @ 2004-12-15T21:14:00

2004-12-16T02:26:10Z

Yepp, so I know I havnt updated in a while, its just that, nothing interesting has happened of late. Last weekend was pretty much the usual.. Slept over Dan's house and then on saturday Victoria's house.. I've been so busy lately, it seems like I have no time to do anything, its killing me right now just to write this lol. I dont know where the time goes, but somehow it just seems like I never have enough. Well tuesday I went over Dan's after school and hung out with him and Mina which was cool, went to karate and then came home.. today I didnt do much, Kim and I watched "Twisted" which was a pretty good movie. After that I went to karate and then came home.. not too interesting. Tomorrow is sadd and then after that im goin to Hannah's house to help her out in math, thats cool cuz we get to hang out aaannndd her dad insists on payign me lol, also I actually like teaching math, I do kims homework every chance I get.. its so sad.. I dont know I guess I actually kinda like math when I understand it, its not that bad. Its when I dont understand what im doing that I want to rip mrs.willets head off. lol.

Friday im hopefully going to the chorus concert and then going over stephs and hangin witht he lot of them, probably some hot tub action woot, lol. From there later that night I will be going, where else, Dan's house and sleeping over. Saturday plans for Nick DanJulie and Em, movies and lunch, alothough.. I havnt told julie yet, I seriously doubt Dan told Em and Dan himself probably has let it slip his mind, so im gonna have to talk to ppl real quick about that one lol, then saturday night Dan and Mina are sleeping over my house...Sunday nothing special, and the following week is the last one before vacation!!!!! YESS!!!

well now theres nothing left to say and im gonna go plan out my adventure or soemthing... later

bloodlust56 @ 2004-12-13T17:36:00

2004-12-13T22:40:20Z

Ok well by now im sure most of you have seen it, but if you havnt seen it yet check it out here nephthys_907

Pics from Voctoria's house lol, it fuckin rocked

bloodlust56 @ 2004-11-30T21:46:00

2004-12-01T02:48:27Z

SUPER EMO NICK

-everyone hates me

-I cry every night

-My favorite place to be is in the corner of my room.....crying

-my favorite color is black

bloodlust56 @ 2004-11-28T16:06:00

2004-11-28T21:09:47Z

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bloodlust56 @ 2004-11-23T19:31:00

2004-11-24T00:38:35Z

Wow havnt updated in a while.. last weekend was pretty cool of what I can remember. Mina and Dan slept over on friday and then Pat and I slept over Dan's on saturday. It was pretty cool. At around 12:30 Pat and I walked home and about halfway there we encountered the parade. These british woman were behind us screaming at a little girl, it was so cool, they were all "bloody hell!" it made me so happy, lol. British ppl rule.

Monday..hmmm.. I dont think anything cool happened monday, oh wait, I had Harv first period and he made everyone get up in the middle of class and do stretches, lol you shouldve seen our faces, I was freakin out lol.
Tuesday (today) was pretty lame, actually, it was one of the worst days of my life.. though I did get a 10 on my lab and Nicole (maroney) only got an 8 so she had to fess up a dollar (our ongoing bet), yea that felt pretty good lol.
lets see...fought with Caron some more...Julie yelled at Caron too...yea today was pretty uneventful. Oh, I passed in my money today for the phantom of the opera, thats gonna be so awesome I cant wait to go. Anyone of reads this and you want to go, you can go, just bring in 31$ by november 30th to mrs.daley...im not exactly sure where that is, its either f-16 or f-19..one of the two, but it doesnt matter cuz they're like right next to eachother anyway. But yea dont worry about oh maybe its filled up already or whatever, its not, i spoke to her today and she said ANYONE who wants to come, and I want more ppl to come, so, come. lol

I was going to be a good boy and go to school tomorrow for the half day but then dan asked me if I wanted to sleep over and I was like...yyyeaaa screw that. lol so now im not going to school tomorrow and all you fools are, hahaha, have fun! I know I will be missed but I guess all of you will just have to survive, sorry! lol jp. who gives a damn whether im there or not lol.

I cant wait for thursday, THANKSGIVING!!! so cool.. lots of food and movies and cheese cake i cant wait..oh yea and turkey. Thursday night i need to make plans im definatly not sleeping at home...no plans for friday/friday night either yet, OR EVEN SATURDAY/SATURDAY NIGHT, OMG WHATS HAPPENING. I usually have my whole weekend planned out monday...lol. Dan just got budokai 3 and hes like flippin out..grr i hate that goddamn game, its so friggin retarded lol...blah nothign else to talk about, later

bloodlust56 @ 2004-11-15T17:08:00

2004-11-15T22:23:29Z

Ok I havnt updated in the longest time...a bunch of shit has gone down. lmao. yea not really, I lead a very boring life, this you already know though. Me and Dan hun gout with Ashleigh and Robyn but we ended up gettin in trouble cuz our moms thought we were shooting up, lmao so we had to go back to dans house. So yea now we cant go back there for a while..lol though we are all hangin at Ashleigh's this weekend.

Saturday morning i had to get up at 8... and walk all the way home.. then walk all the way to the library so I could go see this stupid friggin parade that sean had a whole 10 seconds of glory in... lol, took some pics cuz we were very very bored lol.

-see how bored and tired we were, kim was the only one looking at the camera (dan was takin the pic), im off in my own little world listening to music and wishing I was sleeping.

-this is the "E" we found. Someone was having some fun recently... certainly not us... we should taken that shit and sold it, lol.

this is the awesome accident that took place mere minutes be4 the paraders came by. A truck full of water took a tight turn witht he door wide open and water spilled out everywhere all over the police car it was so awesome it made me so happy. It like smashed over the car, there was mass chaos, people were screaming and running, water was everywhere, I swear I thought the world was going to end. lol. Jugs flying everywhere... almost got a jug to the eye, my life flashed before my eyes.

-more wreckage from the accident that took place, thats the jug that nearly took my life...

-sean ian and timmy marching...shortly after the trajic accident..

-Jt doin his whole flag holdin thing (kim randomly was just like..nick does that look like jt to you..? i was like, no are u friggin kidding. 10 seconds later..oh wait lol yea thats him)

yea and there were other pics of sean and ppl but i dont feel like putting them in, you get the just of it. my cd player saved my life, if it didnt work i was gonna be SO FRICKIN PISSED. lol dont ask..white chicks..funny ass movie. lol.

All weekend I pretty much played Halo 2 with Dan, Mina and Pat. Awesome weekend many tournies, beat halo, slept over dans house, he slept here, lots of fun. Saturday night was ellens party. Awesome time. We all took a limo into boston. The limo was so fuckin cool. there was so much shit inside i was havin so much fun lol just bein there. we went to fanual hal and got food and hung out. we then drove around boston for an hour and a half tryin to find a show, which proved to be fruitless. So we then we wanted to go to walmart, buy towels and head to the beach but Bruce (our makshift name for John (the limo driver)) didnt want us to get the limo sandy, and we love bruce so we didnt. SO then we drove all the way to the 24 hour walmart and played tag for like an hour and a half there lmao it was so cool. It was me, ellen, dan, ian, steph, casey and Reen. Tons of shit happened, the limo was so fun but i dont feel like explaining it all cuz i gotta go to karate now...later

bloodlust56 @ 2004-11-07T00:14:00

2004-11-07T05:16:57Z

last updated wednesday... I went over my love's (ashleigh) house. We got lots of french fries form mcdonalds and then sat down to watch "The nightmare before christmas". It was very enjoyable, near the end of the movie Dan stopped by to say hi. When it ended we watched one of tim burton's earliest movies, "vincent" this was a short film of about 15 minutes. It was pretty cool, kinda strange, but then thats tim burton. After that we went outside for a while until Dan had to go. We were just hangin out front when these children that live on the left side of ashleigh's house (its like a condo-ish thing) started harrassing us from their door. They had to have been like no older than 10, they kept opening the door real quick and shutting it and making wierd noises and lookin at us real quick then hiding. I was getting so fed up, dan ran over to the door and scared them, lmao it was so funny, they were screaming, so we hid on the sides of the door and when they opened it we'd scare them. It was the chubby one that kept openeing the door, he made me laugh...he was so chubby, i kept asking for the chubby one to come out and play.

At one point Dan tried to lure them out with candy (they had locked the door after dan ran inside and scared them), they proclaimed they werent stupid and they wouldnt come out. Then i asked again for the chubby child to come out and get the candy, he looked at me through the window and told me I was the chubby one. Needless to say, this 10 year old had greatly offended me. After more harassment we got up and went on the other side of the porch, while we were saying our goodbyes to dan one of the little ones started acting up again, started opening the door real quick and screaming things so finanly i got so mad that when the little kif screamed somehting again I was just like, "SHUT UP DICK HEAD". We all started laughing so hard, it was so friggin funny, i loved it so much.

Friday I hung out/slept over dans house with pat. We went to see "the forgotten" again cuz his aunt wanted to see it, such a great movie, i love that movie so much. EVERYONE should see that movie, its just so fuckin good. Not much else happened friday, just hung out, nothing worth writitng. Saturday hung out with Dan/Pat and Tim too. We went to see "The Incredibles". Our movie was origionally 4 so i thought, oh perfect timing ill make the play (which i had wanted to see evry much) but by the time we got there dans aunt decided to see the 4:30 one instead, so i missed it..blah i was so mad. The incredibles was an awesoem movie though, lol wicked funny. So yea after that I went home.

Upon arrival at home I spent like 20 minutes and then I got my dad to drive me to other Dan's house. We did the history packet (as much as we could do lol) and then just hung for a while, listened to dan play guitar. After that we went outside to wait for my parents and dan told me about his coyote experiences...lmao dont ask.

So here I am now..its about quarter passed 12 and im a little annoyd cuz no one is ever on anymore, people always used to be on this late and now NO ONE! you all suck, the only one on is dan, at least he didnt abandon me... im in a blah mood, i wish things were different.

bloodlust56 @ 2004-11-03T06:08:00

2004-11-03T11:10:01Z

ever feel like...dying

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-28T17:49:00

2004-10-28T22:02:35Z

Its been an ok week...good things happened, but the feeling was ephemeral. Too many bad things mixed in. Well i've been grounded all week so nothing of interest has really happened.. sunday i went to salem with ashleigh, Bb and nick, which was really cool. Nick got pics back and they came out really good, it was fun, we left at around 7 and got home at like 11 ish. lol the best part was prolly just the hot coco and the ride home, not that i wanted to go home, it was just the ride was so relaxin all of us just there, hangin out, listenin to music, not a care in the world. Salem itself was cool, just not the BEST part of the night.
Things are so confusing, I think that there should be someone who knows you better than youself out there, and this person will kinda be like the voice in the back of your head telling you exactly what you should or shouldnt do, in respect to yourself. I feel like I dont even know what i want anymore. Things are so fucked, and just sliding though isnt workin anymore.
I went to karate like every day this week... its the only chance I get to see dan, and not only that, it was test week lol, so I kinda had too...
Tomorrow there shouldnt be school, but some ass hole moved the parade to saturday so we are fucked and we have to do school work. I hope a lot of poeple dont show up that way we wont do work, but I know thats just wishful thinking, its not gonna happen lol. Took a math test today..im not sure how i did, it could be a 100, then again it could be an 80, i geuss only time ill tell... French test tomorrow dont wanna study..History test on monday, 70! dates to memorize, each with like a paragraph of info. Its fuckin pure insanity. harvey can be so annoying.
Nothing to do friday..grounded...prolly just stay online all night long, as usual for grounded weekends...Saturday i dont know whats happening, I know in the morning im going to some outlet shops witht he fam to go shopping and we are getting back a around 2, I hope I get off groundation for saturday trick r treating, but that might be like my last string of punishment and then im off the hook, or it just might end like sunday instead of late saturday night..I dunno we'll see what my parents decide..im getting so restless, I just wanna get out of my fucking house, its been so long since i'v gotten to hang out with people. I MISS EVERYONE lol.
Well i know we have tuesday off, so if worst comes to worst, i might not be able to do anything on the weekend but I know I can sleep over dan's house monday night, yay :)

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-22T23:38:00

2004-10-23T04:03:46Z

Holy fucking hell.....I just saw the scariest movie of my entire life...omg it was so scary it was so friggin scary..bloody friggin hell..that movie..so many old people are going to die of a heart attack while watching that movie. So much DEATH...so much killing...it was horrible.. that movie fucking scared me shitless..oh btw, it was, The Grudge. I saw it with my family and Amanda, by the end me and Amanda were clutching eachother..just waiting for the end to come.. yea btw everyone..there is no Emma...hahah this was Julies idea and she came up with the name hahaha, I just thought it would be funny to see what people would say, and yea, it was funny.
Anyways, yea so to everyone who reads this, go see the grudge, get scared shitless and then talk to me about it ok, lol. Omg those japansese poeple...so scary, if the woman was of a different ethnicity I swear to god it wouldnt have been half as scary, but when those japanese eyes focused on the screen, it was fuckin terrifying lol.
Yea so now we are all home..all the lights on hahaha I know im gonna be up all night, but I wouldve been anyway, I had planned on it, talking to poeple, but as of now the only people on are Mirjola and Ashleigh and I dont know how long either of them will be on, neither usually stays on past 3 so I guess im gonna go to bed sometime lol, then ill just read till I cant hold my eyes open any longer..
Tomorrow is stephs party..i cant wait, im doing nothing all weekend so im hoping the party is gonna be awesome..which I know it will be anyway lol. Yea so i didnt get to go to the game..oh well..I wanted to go really bad, like everyone went..and my mom made me stay home, damn her. How is it that life was looking so great just the other day and now..its back to its normal level of shit again..I mean does anyone remember what i said just an entry ago..something about "wow this is so great..blah blah blah LIFE IS GOOD" yea well that shit was, for a lack of a better word, ephemeral alright. back to sucky, woot, another week to go of groundation, even better...does it ever end..now my love is grounded too..will we ever get together to watch the nightmare before christmas...
Bah I hate poeple...

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-21T21:13:00

2004-10-22T02:12:51Z

Ok so yes the bonfire was very much fun, but it also turned out to be very beneficial, lol. Ok well for those of you who read the entry before this, you know how I just totally disobeyed all punishments and went to dans house then got a ride fomr his aunt...well...
Me, kim, kay and amanda werent supposed to leave the house for the bonfire until sena got home, I dont know why, but kayla claimed he had a ride, lol so they all left and I left for dans house. A little while later my mom calls dans house asking dan if he knew where her "children" where and that they werent answering the phone, lol. So dan panics and starts stutter and I was tellin him what to say to my mom. She was wicked pissed cuz sean was at home and no one was there she said.....soo the lie was, that I had stayed home waiting for sean (that way kim and kay wouldnt get in trouble for leaving) while the girls left and then when sean got home and told me he wasnt going, I walked alone to the stadium...hahah.
So when we got home from the bonfire, my parents immediatly thanked me and started praising me. They were like, you stayed home and waited for sean right. And i was just like, yyeeaaa... trying to sound convincing lol, so they said, thankyou so much, you are the only one who did the RIGHT THING. HAHAHAHAHAH suuuree... lol I was like oh yea its no problem you kno, no big. lol. my mom was like, YES IT IS! you had to walk all the way there alone! hahahaha. So then finally, my mom was just like, well, seeing as you did the RIGHT THING today you are still grounded, but your father and I decided you can have your phone privaleges back!! HAHAHA YESS!! I WAS SO HAPPY, I KNEW WHEN I TOLD DAN THAT HE WOULD FLIP OUT!!! lol excitment..but then..i remembered stephs party... hmm, so i walked up to my mom and i was like, can i swap the phone privaleges for stephs party (cuz you guys know i wanna see you THAT bad lol) and my mom thought about it and was juts like, ok, you can go to stephs party saturday!! HAHAHAH SCORE, THIS FUCKIN ROCKS, ALL BECAUSE OF A LIE I GOT TO HANG OUT WITH DAN, GO TOT HE BONFIRE, AND NOW IM GOIN TO STEPHS PARTY, FUCK YEA. lol, this is prolly the only time lying to my parents has actually worked out for me, lol, in a pretty damn good way if i do say so myself.

haha omg im so happy...this is so great...

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-21T16:03:00

2004-10-21T20:09:57Z

bonfire!! dad decided to let me go, he went against the bitch's wishes, hahaha! fool... yea so my punishment is that I have to walk..HAHA! fools.. Dan is picking me up soon so we can hang out for a little while and then his aunt is gonna bring us to the bonfire (my parents arn't home and they expect me to actually still stay home and then walk), it was a master plan if I do say so myself. took a chem test today, blah i hate chem, I hate it, almost more than my life itself... so yea only this weekend and next week and next weekend to go!! WHOOT almost there..I just gotta stay strong..I can do it, I can do it. lol

Dan found a random hat in mrs.rubera's room today...she let him keep it hahahah, he looked like such a dork with it on and he kept it on in harveys class the period after lol.

alright well dan should be here shortly, ill prolly update later... see you people at the bonfire

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-20T14:47:00

2004-10-20T19:08:34Z

as I sit here..eating my potato chips and cream cheese, i find myself contemplating the sad existance that is me. Why is it that nothing can work out for me. Why? WHY WHY WHY. I guess I just have bad luck. Or maybe there is something wrong with me. I get my hopes up, on something or someone..and then FUCK. everything goes straight to hell. I hate my life and I dont even know what else to say, it just blows.

on a happier note...im not aloud to go to the bonfire (after i already bought my ticket! woo hoo!) oh wait, did I say happier note...well thats just the way my life goes, fuckers.

we actually got to play with real cameras in photo today..I made katie get us a "phoenix", lol I put that girl through so much shit im ssurprised she hasnt hit me yet. Victoria is moving into my photo class and my history class, that is very cool.

I asked if i could be let off early from groundation this weekend so I could see people, and my mom was like, no, but you're comming with us on saturday for the hay ride or somehting like that. I was like, fuck that, im not going, im grounded...I will give her not an ounce of satisfaction, I hate her.

I wish i could be someone else..anyone else

chem test tomorrow..sucky

i dont even get to see dan this weekend, my parents are fucked up

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-18T20:14:00

2004-10-19T00:18:48Z

a less "high" version of me lol, i felt the need because so many peopole were telling me how stoned I looked

someone agrees with me, nick told me how bad it was lol

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-18T16:04:00

2004-10-18T20:10:56Z

haha look unhappy nick wearing glasses...I look like a retard which is why I decided not to wear glasses in school, at home is ok, but in school I cannot risk it, lol people will make fun of me and that wont be very fun lol, especially julie, I wont hear the end of it form here. So yea I posted it so you poeple who wanna see me with glasses can make fun of me TO YOURSELVES lol.

School was ok, I got my french test back and I got a 100 oh so happy, then I took a math test and I think I got a 100, its so great, history essay sucked.. lol blah so now im sitting here..missing Dan..why am I grounded, I hate my life.. I have like no homework either so Im friggin bored..oh well ill prolly update again later

-later

-DropKckMurphys76: lol i think you look like naughty librarian nick- -VETO my virtues: you look high- -lilpyro131417: ur glasses are hott- -SuperDuperGrl45: you look old and drunk-

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-17T00:14:00

2004-10-17T04:34:07Z

Ok so this week had its ups and downs.. Monday we had off..tuesday i dont remember much...wednesday we went to school but then the wonderful gas leak happened and mina's parents drove us and dan to dans house, hung out for a while until mom made me come home..thursday is a blur..friday i got to school and Dan M. had pierced his own lip with a safety pin..all I can say is why. he didnt even do it right. by 3rd period he had it out, but still, he said he did it cuz he was bored, when you are bored you play video games, read a book or watch tv. Dan impales himself..So anyways after school i went to Dan A.'s house, hung out with him and pat..not too exciting..played video games watched movies..saturday morning, kim calls at 10:30 and says that mom will be there to pick me up in 5 minutes (i was sleeping btw) so I get up and start gettin ready and stuff like that and i go into the bathroom to change, pat comes over to the door and tells me my parents have been beeping for a while and that they had already told them I would be out soon..so eventually I get out and as I start walking to the door my dad opens it up and he and my mom start screaming my name, like into Dans house they are fucking screaming like a couple of fucking phsychos, dan's aunt and grandmother are sleeping mind you and the door is facing directly in front of the stairs, so I pull the door open give them a wierd look and im like, yea im right here, so my mom is like "this is bull shit!" and they walk back to the truck, I turn around and Dan had his mouth hanging open staring at me and im just like holy shit what is wrong with them. So I get my stuff together and I walk to the truck, when I sit down my mom is like, you are grounded, so I was just like, yea you guys are ass holes. My dad looks at me through the mirror and was like, what did you say. I was just like, you are an ass hole. so he calls me a prick and says fuck you. (and he says im the childish one). So we start to drive over to our destination (doctors office to get my glasses) and my dad starts to tell me how bad of a kid I am (which is so not true, i am an excellent son and child, I just felt the need to tell them exactly what they were) and he tells me I "know nothing", yyeaa...roight... lol anyways so then my dad was like the next time you swear at us i will kill you, HAHAHAHAHAHAH I was like, yea you'll kill me, thats funny. Then I was like, its not my fault you guys cant take the truth (which it is the truth, what kind of person goes into your friends house in the morning, and fuckin screams at the top of thier lungs and wakes up the whole house, AS IF I DIDNT KNOW THEY WERE WAITING FOR ME, THEY JUST START FUCKIN SCREAMIN, clearly, an ass hole, its the truth) so anyways, after I say that last bit my mom gasps like so dramatically I was laughing so hard and my mom just tells my dad, dont have a heart attack its not worth it, which made me laugh even more!! haha fuckin losers. I hate them. So then my dad is just like I wish i never got you those glasses, your a horrible child and I dont wanna spend money on horrible children! HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH it was so funny, I was just like, I KNOW IM SUCH A HORRIBLE CHILD, GOSH I WISH YOU NEVER BOUGHT ME THOSE GLASSES TOO!!! fuckin loser... so he tells me im grounded for two weeks... I drop my mouth in a sarcastic way and say "but thats not fair!" lol i always get so sarcastic with them..yea but anyways w/e I fuckin hate them and now im grounded for 2 weeks and I hate my life...ill update agian later i guess..nothing else to do

i look so dumb with glasses

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-11T17:36:00

2004-10-12T01:01:04Z

Yep, this weekend rocked. Friday was Dan's house. Pat and I slept over and around 8 o clock a random puppy ran at us from no where. It was so small, lol pat loved it. We were playin with him and then dan had to ruin it and scare him off, i was so mad! lol. But eventually the boy came back and pat picked him up and we brought him to some houses so that we could help him find his way home. Eventually we found his home and reluctantly put him in the back yard (there was another rather mean looking beagle in the yard lol) but once the doggies got together the beagle calmed down. Yea and i got jean up to lv.27 aww so awesome, not that anyone knows or cares what im talking about lol..dont mind me.

Saturday morning I had to leave at like 8:30, it sucked so hard. I was tired as all hell and I didnt wanna aleave Dan's house. When I got to my grandmothers house I ate something and then slept till 1:30 haha lol. Grams wasnt as bad as I thought it was gonna be.. we ate out a lot.. and I got to watch x-men 2, great movie, lol, and yea..ate out some more..my grandmother started talking about crack heads and my aunt was teaching us the five finger discount hahaha.

Sunday I woke up fully at around 11 ish, kim and I stayed at my grams house while kayla and sean were volunteered (by me) as the kids who were going to church hahaha fools. lol. Yea so then by the time my parents came back we were risking being late for stephs so we left quickly. On the way home my mother figured out that stephs party was at diburros..so she decided that my wearing kahkis was no longer cool, lol.. Yea so got my stuff (black pants, red shirt, black tie) went home, changed and then eventually left for the party. The party was so great, it was so much fun. Julie actually dragged me out and had me dancing, buckhout broke her ankle i felt so bad haha i had to carry her to the car, tori and andy made out on the dance floor what else lol, food was great, everyone wa sther, did i mention it was the best party I have ever been to, i had so much fun, people were laughing and crying and just being crazy, julie dumped her boyfriend..everyone took pictures.., cake was great, ahh so much fun i cant even write it all down!! lol.

That night I slept over dans house along with mina, which was cool, just hung out, didnt do much cuz we got back late. Monday morning I had to leave pretty early agian, for mirjola was comming to my house. i got home at like 11:30 and mirjola was already there. So i quickly took a shower and then went downatsiars. We all watched taking lives which mirjola liked and i always thought was a great movie and then we hung out for a while and had some pizza. At around 4 we decided to walk to academy, we toot the tracks like the rebelious children we are, almost died!! lol jp, we got to the bowling alley, entered our names in the screen and the Ashleys dad called and told her to be at my house in 15 minutes lol. so yea we ran home, and got there at like 10 past 5. Then me and mirjola just hung out at my house for the remainder, i showed her my room, and my sisters room, and u kno parts of mty house she never seen. Then i played the piano cuz im so good lol and eventually at like 10 of 6 we walked down to the train station. Her train arrived at like 5 past and then there were hugs and goodbyes and i walked home... went online..had dinner...still online..bored..school is tomorrow..I dont wanna go..harveys homework sucks..im screwed..lol

oh yea btw there is offically a new drink named after me (the nick drew) its similar to a shirly temple, only instead of ginger ale its got sprie) (like a robroy with coke instead of ginfger ale) im so clever everyone at the party was drinkin them, most ppl didnt even kno they were made up haha it was so cool, i feel so special now lol, the bar tender was handin em out liek it was a real drink lol..

also btw, julie and dan are back together hahaha later

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-08T02:46:00

2004-10-08T10:04:29Z

Yea this week was..eh, ok. Monday I hung out with Pat after school, which is always good seeing as we really dont get to hang out much anymore. Then tuesday I went to karate and i dont really think anything interesting happened. Wednesday I went over Dan's house with Mina again just hung out played video games, and then thursday Dan came over my house, I went to go to the eye doctor and I got glasses..I look so horribly dumb with glasses its so bad, I cant bear to wear them.. I dont know what i shall do, the doctor told me that my eye muscles were stronger than normal poeple's because I have been squinting so long, which basically means that I can keep an image in focus for a lot longer than most popel, isnt that cool, me and Joe decided I was an x man, we are starting an insititue for higher learning, he is my first student; he can tell time without the help of worldy objects such as a watch. After I picked out my rims me and Dan came back to my house and headed to ashleigh's house. By the time we got there Dan had to leave; his aunt tried to replace me with a chocolate frappe, I told him he cant trust that shit, they melt, I would never melt on him..lol Yea so it was just me and ashleigh we walked over to mcdonalds and got some fries (how i love french fries) then we walked back to ashleighs house and we called ashley and had her come over. I went home at around seven..went online till about 11 ish...

Crowded streets all cleared away
One by One
Hollow heroes separate
As they run

Tonight I am sleeping over dan's house along with pat, Saturday night I am being forced to sleep at my grandmothers house its so fucking retarded, my parents are going to a cruise so for that night we all have to stay with my grandmother, I was freakin out, my mom was just like "you can watch movies", how many fucking movies can we watch, we're gonna be there all day and then all night, FUCK. Sunday is stephs big party which everyone whos anyone is going too, any guys that read this, wear kahkis. lol. Sunday night I am sleeping over Dan's with Mina. Monday I am hanging out with Mirjola and others, seein a movie and then prolly coming back to my house, not too sure on that one.

when are we getting our student id's?? we took pictures like over a month ago, I want my damn student ID.

You're so cold
Keep your hand in mine
Wise men wonder while
Strong men die

Im not taking psats im so mad, i forgot to bring the money in...it angers me very much

french class, Dan got yelled at for having his hand on me and caseys shoulders, madame came up to him and was like "Dan we do not touch other people in french class, keep your hands and fett to yourself, especially we do not touch people of the other sex." immediatley i turned and stared at her because I had noth heard somehting like that since like the 4th grade, then she was like "I just cant have you doing it cuz I dont even wanna think of what it will lead to"...as if his hand is gonan randomly travel from her shoulder to her chest..lol seriously madame is fucked. Im willing to bet something happened to her when she was younger..something bad.. lol

Show me how it end it's alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfy an empty inside
That's alright, let's give this another try

btw if you believe you are an xman too, report to Joe, he'll know what to do with you

later

You're so cold, but you feel alive
Lay your hands on me one last time

bloodlust56 @ 2004-10-03T02:17:00

2004-10-03T07:16:33Z

Well I havnt updated in a while I know... lets see I think the last time was like monday which is pretty long for me, i mean, thats almost a week without updating, whoa. Ok so i've decided not to totally give up on xanga, im gonna give it another shot, just cuz, i like it, lol; its just complicated and im not sure ill be able to do it, iv got dana to help me out tho so chances are looking good, lol. yea so right now its 2:27 and no one is online but hannah so me and her are talkin, currently about how our days were, before that we were talking in metaphorical speech, as if our relationship was a ship that had just set sail... lol its a long story that got really in depth haha. yea so lets see what has happened since i last updated... wednesday I hung out with dan and Pat yea that was really cool, that made me feel a lot better than how I have been feeling lately.

Thursday I went out to eat at friendlys which was really cool. At first it ended up being me, dan and victoria, no one else showed up. So we walked to andy's house and picked him up lol his mom is really cool. Then we walked back to friendlys and got a table. After a few minutes courtney suddenly appeared at our table looking extremely out of breathe lol, still in uniform, shin pads and all hahah. So i ended up gettin the "kickin buffalo basket" which was cool cuz i had seen it on tv and I had been craving it forever. So yea then we got dessert and courtney left. From there we walked back to andy's and me and victoria helped out andy's brother with his homework lol. Then we all walked back to Friendlys and waited in the pouring rain for dans aunt lol which wasnt that bad aside from Victoria and Andy's random make out sessions and dan spitting icecream everywhere..lol

Friday night Mina and I slept over Dan's house. I was at his house for a total of 45min. before I thought, oh, I have to call my mom. So I did. And what do u kno. I got into a huge fight with my mom, i guess i was talking to her as if she was less than me..lol.. w/e.. so the friggin bitch decides to tell me I have a half an hour to walk home. I was like holy shit. So I hung up the phone and I did not move my ass anywhere. She calls back on dan's grandmothers phone and was like nicholas if you do not come home now I will have Dan's grandma kick you out, ok that one took all I had just to not laugh at lol, but yea at that point I figured my only chance to be able to come back would be to do what she wanted. So I rode dan's bike to my house.. I begged my mom to let me go back but she was being friggin gay so she said no and I had a seizure right in fron of her.. lol that didnt help.. So yea then i went upstairs took a shower and started blaring my music.. I fell asleep... at around 6 i woke up.. I went downstairs no one was home.. at around 7 my mom got home I asked her if i could go to dans please.. she said wait till ur father got home.. at around 7:30 dad got home, i asked him, he said talk to your mother.. lol so after a whole fiasco I ended up getting a yes from them and dan picked me up on the way to the mall...

Ok so two things happened that I predicted would happen when we went to the mall. 1) I predicted that we would run in to Steph, Mavreen, Andre, Ashley B. and Casey, I knew they were gettin their dresses friday and i had a hunch.. even though the store was closing in like 20 minutes. 2) I predicted that we would run into Jt, I didnt know if he planned on going tot he movies that night I just had a feeling when we got there that he was there. So yea, needless to say, i was right about both things. As we walked by debs in the mall I peeked my head in real quick to see if the girls were still there but I didnt see anyone so I figured they had left by then, thats when I heard Reen scream and I turned and saw her we ran towards eachother and hugged lol. Thats when they explained to us that Andre had just been caught by the security guards stealing from cvs, apparently he had stolen some stuff form there but he was also wearing like 5 different shirts from other stores lol. So yea the girls were freaking out they didnt know where andre was, (not only was he a friend they cared about... he was their ride home lol) lol Ashley was hyperventilating it was so funny, so we all went into cvs to look for dre and eventually some guy came over and attacked dan with a bunch of wrapping paper and tol dus to get out (I guess he had assumed we were stealing) lol yea so we were out of there.. So then we got kicked out and they closed the metal things behind us, We like jogged to the security desk (on the way we ran into Jt and Marissa) and when we got there they told us what was goin on with dre. He was like signing paper work and stuff and the girls where to meet him outside for thier ride lol. Thats when dans aunt called and we headed back to the car. We got home, played like 2 hours of super nintendo mario and then put on a movie and went to bed.

Saturday we got up at around 12:15. We played Xmen legends (for xbox a fucking awesome game haha i love it so much Jean grey is so friggin awesome makes me wanna just blahh) till about 5 which is when mina went home. Then we went to Khols and I helped dan pick out his cloths for a dance that he went to tonight with Em. Then I went home and cleaned up my room a little. My parents got me a new light for my room which is cool cuz dan like torched his skin on the old one lol and they got me a clock too which is cool but I really cant read clocks so it does me no good, lol. Then after I became worker nick and attatched a new shower head Ashleigh (ok for some reason it took me 5 times to spell that right lol ashleuigh, asleugh, ashleuh, ashleiug) dont ask.. its 3 am and im tired.. Lol yea so where was I.. Ashleigh called and asked if I wanted to walk down to greenleaf and hang with her BB and this kid they are friends with named Dan, so I walked down there and we jsut kinda hung out there for a while (by then it was dark) and we decided to walk down to mcdonalds and I made ashleigh buy me some frenchfries because I am broke lol and I thank her and love her very much lol. Yea so after that we walked back to greenleaf and hung out there again. Eventually it decided to downpour on us lol so me and ashleigh stood there hugging in the rain and got very very wet. After a while we all started running around in the rain and me and BB kept kicking the water at eachother and we were all getting very sandy and jumping in puddles, lol it was very fun, haha we're such dorks :P lol. So yea then they walked me home. When I got in my mom was like "you're soaked!!" lol and I was just like "yyeaa.. its raining out.." haha. Yea then I went upstairs with every intent on doing the huge essay harvey assigned and the math homework willets assigned... but no.. I went online.. and look, its quarter past 3 and im still online.. hannah is digilent, she wont leave me lol. HAHahaha hannah just tol dme I lied to her and that our ship is comming in, I tol dher that she was lookin at the wrong ship and that ours was a little more to the left lol. haha we're so lame.. lol its all good though, ok well i guess thats enough with this entry, I wonder how many people will actually read this lol, im gonna go comment on other peoples journals, write mirjola an email and write dana a note, later

bloodlust56 @ 2004-09-28T16:29:00

2004-09-28T20:39:06Z

Dont feel like updating..

hung out with pat yesterday

hangin with pat and dan tomorrow

karate at 6 today

no one is online right now and im bored

kim is sleeping, no one else is home.. its a horrible day out, its not even good rain, its sucky rain...

everyone and everything is bothering me lately

people have to keep bugging me, why cant they just leave me alone, i cant make anyone understand, frustrating

hopefully goin to friendlys with victoria and andy and julie....and dan....and ashley b. and courtney and paul? i dont know who paul is.. apparently courtneys new guy

the weekend isnt even cheering me up, everything is gloomy

my picture of katie came out horrible in art today.. i made her pose by this ladder, and the picture didnt even come out, fuckin bull shit, nothing comes out

I can already see this weekend sucking.. followed by another sucky week of school

french test tomorrow...history friggin huge test thursday, chem test thursday...

someone make me happy

bloodlust56 @ 2004-09-26T22:50:00

2004-09-27T02:54:19Z

today sucked.. I was supposed to hang out with Dana but my mom screwed me over.. I ended up spending the whole day at my aunts house then my grandmothers house.. got home at 9 ish.. went online

hell

people suck these days

its the people that you trust that hurt you the most

later

a la campagne

2004-09-26T19:00:00Z

Friday me and Pat slept over Dans house. Nick V. came over to "challenge" pat at Super Smash Bros. which was a total falure as we all already knew it was going to be, then we went downstairs and watched this new anime called "chrono crusades" which was ok, not the best anime i've ever seen. After that we went outside and decided to beat eachother viciously with noodles which is always fun; Then Mina came over and we all attcked him with the noodles and then form behind dan's fence we saw a large group of little kids coming up the street, when they got close enough to Dan's house we ran from behind his house and attacked all the little children with the noodles, lol they scattered so fast and ran up the hill. Once one kid got to the top of the hill he got a little cocky and started yelling things at us so we chased him again, lol. A while after that we all (minus nick v. and mina) went to the loop to meet a bunch of people there (steph,mavreen,casey,ellen,andre,kim,kay,pat,ashley d.,ashley b.)

Upon arrival at the loop we got our 7 o clock tickets and waited for the rest of the bunch, they got there a little late and we had trouble with a credit card so we all exchanged our tickets for 8 o clock and walked over to stop and shop to get money; apparently we had forgottena bout andre because about halfway to stop and shop we noticed he was gone.. so yea we didnt see him for the rest of the night, he didnt go out to eat wiht us or see the movie; in fact we hear from him until the next day..lol.. so yea we got money and went and saw "the forgotten", this movie was the greatest movie I have ever seen in my entire life, there is no better movie, it is by far my favorite movie and is perfect in every sense. EVERYONE should see that movie and if you do not, then you are just a loser. Yea so after the movie we went over to TGI Fridays and got somethign to eat, whil steph was away me mav and dan called over the waitress to tell her it was stephs birthday, steph came back along with ashley b. and ashley noticed that dan was acting strange, because he was, he was acting a little too obvious, lol oh well though, eventually steph got her happy birthday form Fridays and ice cream on the house haha lol, which ike everyone except her ate. Yep so then we went back to dans put on a movie and fell asleep.

The next day Pat left pretty early and I went with Dan and hsi autn to pick up thier new car. I dont remember what type of car it was but it was pretty nice, I mean I spend so much time in thier car anyway it benefits me just as much haha lol. I got dropped off home at around 5 and jumped in the shower. My mom tried to make me socialize with my cousin who is a senior and who has nothing in common with me and who prolly didnt wanna talk to me in the first place. i refused. It would have been awkward and I was not going to put either of us through that lol. So yea at around 7 ish steph came by and picked me kim kay and sean up. We all went to pilgrim lanes and in total it was me, kim, kay, sean, victoria, ian, steph, mavreen, ellen, ally, andre, dan, and eric. We went inside and played some pool and went bowling. Had some drama with ally and this drunk kid named nate lol dont ask and then we went and played in the arcade (I wrecked everone at air hockey). Yea so after that we walked to romanos for food but they were closed..(it was around 10 ish at this time) then we walked down to brothers pizza and they were closed to lol so then we were stuck going to dunkins and we got some munchkins. After that we walked back to pilgrims and waited to get picked up. We were waiting in front but then dan, ian, sean and eric started getting wild so some woman form inside told us we couldnt stay anymore and we had to go somewhere else, so we went tot he side of the building and then we got kicked out form there too... i have to finish quickly now cuz i hafta leave, so yea then at about 11 we finally got picked up i went home, went online, and fell asleep at around 4 ish. ill write again later, bye.